Okay, Georgia you got me....

Thank you but never again will I join a gym that's a chain !

It's been a year now since we have lived here. Last year we were living in this house, except it was empty. Sleeping on the floor on air mattresses. We borrowed a card table, kitchen supplies, and bedding from a friend. I could list the places I have visited and the things I have done, but it's already in here.

I think the best thing that has truly happened to me is my gym. I must say truly it's the best part of my day, and as Joe likes to put it "people give a shit". They don't mix Jesus with personal training, they don't mix psycho with personal training. There is no mixing with anything....its just people who care. Trust me, I am so sick of hearing cheezy flowing out of people's mouths. 

Well, I think the best impact it has had on my life was going to the Endocrinologist. I have been going to doctors obviously for years about my weight. I HATE going to the doctor and having them say " Well, you are morbidly obese". It's truly the first thing that comes out of their  mouths. OKAY just so everyone knows....I am aware of this. I wake up every frickin day in the morning and I am reminded of it. When I look in the mirror, when I am walking down stairs, when I am driving, when I am sleeping, when I am dreaming. I know this, this is not NEW NEWS to me. What the heck ? Are they not aware of this ? So, they all test my thyroid and my blood sugar. Everything comes out "Normal".

 When I weighed 310 pounds checking into the hospital I did not have gestational diabetes. So, finally I meet someone who really gives a crap. Joe sends me to a Dr. Black in Atlanta. He draws my blood and discovers my body is producing too much insulin. I have pre diabetes. FINALLY !  Finally my issues with obesity are answered ! It's NOT my fault...it's genetic ! I have beat myself up for YEARS about this and all those internists telling me I am fine. I hate it ! I wish I had a normal doctor. A doctor without an ego....is there such a thing ? 

Now how do I really feel about this diagnosis ? Am I surprised ? Well, I suppose with all the exercising I have been doing over the past 5 months ? I thought that I would be in better heath. It explains though how I am not a "pig" and have not lost weight. Many people who are fat do not sit down on a daily basis and consume hamburgers and bon bons. I do not snack all day long and shove potato chips into my mouth and candy bars. However, I must say that carbs have been a family friend for many years. I do not turn down desserts such as cake and ice cream. Also, I think Diet Coke has played a major role in this. So, I am divorcing Diet Coke and having partial custody with cake and ice cream. "Sugar Free" is not my friend.