Taking the bull by the horns...

Betty White, best part of the movie

I just watched "You Again". It was a story about being bullied in high school. It was pretty painful to watch. I was bullied a lot in school. I was very over sensitive and very emotional. So, all someone had to do was say something mean to me and I would be in tears. I never fought back either. I never had the guts of glory to stick up for myself. However, I do remember in 6th grade that someone dropped a lock on my head. I was trying to get the plastic part of the bike lock out of the spokes of my bike and she dropped it on my head. She of course was laughing hysterically....I was obviously crying and in a great deal of pain. So, what did I do ? I whipped that spiral plastic chain thingy and beat the crap out of her. I have no idea how I stopped. You know, you can only take so much bullying by someone before you just lose it. I don't recall her bullying me after that...I am sure that she did. I was bullied in Jr. High and my first two years of high school.

Not quite my favorite part....

Little bit of plastic surgery perhaps...

Dude, you would have aged nicely if ya skipped the botox !

I could list all the things people did to me or said to me to make me feel like a worthless piece of shit, but why bother. We know how evil kids are in middle school and high school. A few things that I find interesting after being on Facebook. Bullies don't remember what they did that many years ago. I had one friend that told me that he didn't remember tripping me as we were running around the track and laughing at me as I wiped out on the ground. He doesn't remember picking on me in school when I had to read out loud. I was horrible reading out loud, not because I am bad at it, because how people made me feel when I was doing it. All I could think of was " I am a loser, I am a loser". So, I would fumble and miss words and then he would make comments like,  " Oh my god does SHE have to read" ?
He would get pissed if he was assigned to my team in PE. Oh hated P.E and P.E hated me. I was always last to be picked. If I had to be assigned to a team, all the boys would just bitch about it. I would stand way way out in the outfield. So, the ball would never come to me. It always made everyone happy to see me out of the way. Because they could win fricking P.E baseball. REALLY ? was P.E that important to them ? Did anyone really care if they won or not ? Was there a trophies ?
So, I look back at the time I was in the bathroom at JR. Prom. One girl walked up to me and said " You know J.A told me he was having a horrible time being your date". One of many things this school bully did to me. Like shoving my face into my locker.

Yet, really these bullies had really messed up lives. You learn as you get older how bad their lives at home were. That they suffered from depression, or they ended up in jail, or they ended up as drug addicts. Those bullies were people that had a hard times adjusting to a new school. So, their solutions were to be mean to people like me to feel better about themselves. Kids that seek power. I some times wonder if evil dictators were bullied or they just never changed and never grew up. I would say that most people never say they are sorry for being bullies. I think that they know and you know what they did was shitty and wrong. You just go on in life. Sometimes, I guess they have no idea how it impacts peoples lives in the future. I just feel crappy because I put up with it. That I just carried that freaking torch around for YEARS. " I was bullied, I was abused, so please pity me". It's hard because I know that girls are bitchy to my daughter at school. She is resilient and amazing. She just says " Mom, those girls were mean". She doesn't go home crying ( not yet) and running to her room slamming the door.

It will happen, some girl is going to bully my girl....no idea what I am going to do....or what she is going to do ...