Brand New Day

My most favorite person on this earth and I

I'm sorry that people freak out when I am angry. I believed that holding anger inside is unhealthy...am I wrong. Why I make my anger public ? Well, because maybe ...maybe I just want to scream to the top of the world that I am angry. Then again, maybe it's not a good idea to do so...because...I am showing the world....that..um...I am upset ? Maybe I find it a solution than to eat ? Maybe its easier than going to the gym ? Truly, I wanted to take those letters that were sent to my sister and I and post it for the world to see. To see how crazy that lady was. Many reasonable people said. well, she was having a bad day and taking it out on you or she is bitter or her feelings were hurt. I see it as : Lady hates the world because her son has diabetes type1, she is exhausted every day waking up three times in the middle of the night to check his insulin levels, she has no control . Stop taking your grief out on others for a situation that is out of your control.
I was angry because she attacked me and my sister. I am upset because she thought I was some mentally sick human being who makes fun of sick children. THAT is why I am upset and in my small lifetime it will mean nothing. I choose to take my anger out to the world instead of a particular individual because the world doesn't care. Perhaps it is not the wisest choice, but it will take me time to figure out another way to deal with this...exercise does not help me....I will tell you that much :)
I am over with this and will never allow another human being to attack me and consume me like she did. Perhaps I will become selfish and uncaring to people, my life is to short to deal with such people. I like being kind to others, I like service, I like religion, I like the teachings of the bible, I like peace, I like balance in my universe, I like hugs and kisses and love, I love my family, I love animals, I like  positive reinforcement and a positive attitude. I love my relationships with my friends and my extended family. I am a good person and my feelings are valid and of worth.