Neurofeedback

I am so tired with mongo raccoon eyes that I have no clue if I have blogged about this already. However, after talking to my friend two days ago I have decided to blog about my neurofeedback experience. It hasn't happened yet, but I have saved a good amount of money to start.

Okay here we go...

WHY: Why would I need to have this done ? Well, I have had a long long long playing record in my brain since I was a small child. It goes like this: Gretchie you are a loser, you are not intelligent, you are fat, and you are a worthless human being. Now, one would think ...well it's not true. So, one would say ," Gretchie, I think you are fabulous". Trust me,  you could have powerful and famous people tell me that I am fabulous. You could be one of many people I have loved and admired my entire life and tell me that I am great or swell or whatever. It doesn't matter. I was bullied as a child at school. I had pretty miserable childhood. I am extremely over sensitive and have spent  many a day and night crying. So, you might find this hard to believe but : THE BAD STUFF STICKS AND YOU CAN'T REPAIR IT YOURSELF THROUGH THERAPY
I did, I tried SOOO many therapists and it hasn't helped. It is essentially Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I have that and some depression and some major ADHD. I am going to fix this mess !!

HOW:Okay, since I haven't even made my appointment yet...I haven't been able to tell you how. So above I have attached some pictures that show how it might be done. My friend could not sleep for 15 years because of anxiety and stuff racing through his brain etc. So, he started doing this and NOW HE SLEEPS ! It has done some amazing things for people and I am willing to try it. 

Yes, sometimes I want to just write letters of gratitude to those who bullied me, the boyfriends who dumped me, the girl friends with power issues and thank them for screwing up my brain. Unfortunately, those people are dead, or they don't remember, or they are in jail or drug addicts. Some of them STILL are exactly the same in belief that the way they treated me is perfectly acceptable. You know some people didn't mean to hurt my feelings and they did it anyway.  Then of course there is my childhood at home  and you can't go back from that.   So, if you know someone with brain damage, depression, ADHD or Post Traumatic Stress Disorder I hope this blog might encourage them to try this...praying it works for me !