It's just a bunch of nonsense...

I am sitting in front of the television watching "Touch". It's not the best TV out there, but it's something to keep me entertained while do laundry. What I should be doing is finishing my book on Andrew Jackson's Petticoat Scandal. Interesting book, but this Margaret Eaton reminds me of me. She is outspoken and has no fear of talking to men. Yet, society has made her an outcast and it's rather depressing. I am pretty sure I would be in her shoes if I was alive in those colonial days ! Sometimes I feel like I have been outcast. That people have made their own perceptions about who I am and decided that I was unacceptable.

I still have some vertigo . I did see a new doctor who is much nicer than my last one. She too recommended taking decongestion.  Except that she was more than willing to refer me to a Physical Therapist. Maybe this butt head of a doctor didn't believe me. What I just need to do is try this for the entire week and if it doesn't work than I will and see one. It just really angers me when there is no respect. That I am a fool believing that this will work. Now, to prove her wrong...what drive I have. To be told that I am wrong or that I can't do something. There is such a force in me and such a challenge. Wow, if I could just take the drive...imagine what I could do ! 

I am not so sad to hear that my mother has chosen not to take me on a cruise to Southampton. It all sounds so romantic and exciting . Yet all I can think about is the wealth walking around on that ship and the snooty old people. The elegant meals and the formal dresses. That is not a vacation that is sorta of a mini hell. Instead she has decided to take my family on another cruise. She wants to take us on a Disney Cruise, but you know a cruise is cruise. My kids could care less about Disney. There is however a cruise that departs out of Florida where kids travel for free and that is my kind of cruise ! No midnight buffet, but I could care less.  It goes to Central America ! To Honduras ! I know, Honduras is crazy, but my friend has taken her kids on that cruise and it sounds really cool. Wild monkeys on trees, swimming aside dolphins, scuba diving and canoe ! Not counting my chickens before they are hatched. 

My Brazilian friend has asked me to visit her in New York City....I have been 2 times already in two years...maybe less than two years. Hmm.....am I crazy to go again ...now ?

The weather is cold, but much more gentle today. Yesterday, it was such a hellish day. The tornado threat and just sitting in the bathroom basement. Is that what life is all about ? I miss California...sometimes the risk of a major earthquake does not bother me as much as...what 8 sirens going off in a day. I told my mother it was something like air raids sirens from WWII.