Well it's Friday

I am sitting here eating pretzel m&m's.  T and I have just finished a trip to Target.  Pretty much it was all processed food which pretty much makes me mother of the year. I went to Whole Foods to pick up some leeks and saw my friend J.  J is totally committed to eating healthy. Not only is she a vegetarian, but she eats all organic. One day I will walk the walk and talk the talk. I really like Whole Foods, its just too bad its also Whole Paycheck.  So, the trip to Target was of course a nightmare.  S had several temper tantrums and asked for EVERYTHING.  A and E fought about which cart they wanted to be in.  I mean really this is never going to get better.  It's just going to be different.

I keep being bi polar with the whole blog thing.  Do I allow the whole flippin world read it, or do I just keep it private?  I just googled "Gretchie Love". It used to be when you googled "Gretchie Love" it would be a logo of Target and moi.  Well, that status has been lost...and truly I just need it back. Gretchie has to be her own rock star.  Besides, its good to know that others want to feel my midlife crisis pain.  So sooo many people are going through what I am going through. I just blab it out loud.  I wonder why I was born without boundaries ? It's so unhealthy...how am I really going to make them.  That is a huge challenge for me since I have always been an open book. " Look, this is me, I am who I am". Saying what you feel isn't always the best solution.
I  checked out some art classes at DVC and museums in Atlanta. I am wondering if being a docent at a museum is a perfect job for me.  It's a people job, and it's sharing information with others.  I think that would be perfect for me. It would also require a lot of art history and the modern art museum requires 1 year training and a 2 year commitment. It is something new to investigate.  I would also meet people who like art as well. It is just one of the one million things I am considering.  Gretchie trying to find something that brings her joy and happiness. Why did Andy Warhol have to die....I could have been a Factory Girl !!

Reading Hillary Clinton's biography. It's pretty good. I am not much into politics (well maybe Gavin Newsom) , but find it interesting when other people turn out like Hillary.  She was just raised by people who inspired her to be in politics. I find her amazing ! Secretary of State ! It took her years to get there, but WOW impressive to me. I mean I have a ton of books to read. My next book is on Jimmy Carter. The last time I tried to pick that book and read it....well it lasted though the first chapter.  It is so way over my head, but maybe now by some random act of god I will get it. I tried reading "The Far Pavilions" okay that book is HUGE and the dog ate it.  So, it's been tainted :)  Anyway, maybe someones biography will inspire me.
Monday I am back to the usual.  I have taken a lot of time off from boot camp, but I am ready to return. I still have a lot of weight to lose. I just hope it comes of like it did before. T said to me today " I think from behind you look like a  totally different person." I know....I know I should be flattered and happy about all the compliments and weight loss.  It's just not done yet, and I am not going to feel good about it until I am at my ideal weight and size.  I am thinking size 12. It's not big and its not small it's just right.  It was the size I was when I was a nanny in Germany. I seemed to be at my best health then.

Okay, now I have to find a picture to go with this blog.  Pictures are what make blogs interesting.  This  picture of me was taken by my Hipstamatic app. I highly recommend it !  It makes fantastic photos and covers all my wrinkles and old age spots :) The picture I took of me and S is with Ina's 1935 film. Photographer....nope I am not going to go there :)  Yes, my hair looks yellow...but the lighting made by these pictures is kewl !