Cranky Gretchie Love

Okay, my day today...I woke up at 5:45 and went to the gym. I met Marcia and we were trained by one of my favorite peeps Matt. Matt and I have a special relationship. He does his job and I either smile at him or yell at him and say "This (being our relationship) is over". Then I discuss our divorce. Within an hour I am again declaring my love for him. Matt has to be ....um...maybe 32 ? He is married to a beautiful lady and had a baby about a year ago. So,I can pretty much hate him, love him, divorce him, or just tell him "whatever" and really...it doesn't matter. Joey was there...I harassed him and met a nice lady who told me that she used to weigh 300 lbs. Um, how am I supposed to take that ? Do I look 300 pounds ? Anyway, she said I inspire her....to what ? Divorce Matt too ? Harass Joe ? Yell to Natalie how 6am feels after taking nyquill sleep medicine ? 

I went home and crashed. Crashed and had like CRAZY dreams. I explained them to Anna and Tracey today and lunch . I think that....well I don't know...if that crap was rolling around in my subconscious ...what is going on with me ? It involved a dead former high school classmate, a barbie with a dead body in it, a funky morgue that was fixing the dead face of people, and a bi sexual fat mafia man. Yes, my dreams ladies and gentlemen, and quite frankly there is nothing I can do to stop it. May my dreams of this evening consist of some tall dark and handsome man on the beaches of Rio de Janerio singing to the 300 lbs lady "Garota de Ipanema" . 

I was awaken by a text at about 10:30am and read all the alarms of the respondsibilites I had that morning that I had not yet missed. I met up with Lisa at the clubhouse to discuss this years swim team concessions. Then I went to lunch with poor Anna and Tracey who had to listen to my bizarre nightmare. I never told Tracey about the bisexual mafia because at the time it just did not seem appropriate. We returned home for me to take care of my girl Trixie and then waited at the bus stop for the twinzies to return home. 

During the hours spent at home this evening I listened to NPR, NBC and 60 Minutes. I am not quite sure why I now listen to podcasts of last night news . I suppose it because I find Brian Williams to be a hottie. Is that really a reason ? Anyway, I have to say that I really enjoyed the podcasts that I heard to day. The first one was from NPR's Radio Lab. Okay, I do not consider myself to be "science friendly", but I can handle the stories of Radio Lab. It was about a lady who got married and wanted to get pregnant. So, she gets pregnant and has tons of complications with her pregnancy and delivers preterm. She delivers to the point where the baby does not appear its going to make it. The couple talks about the ups and downs of having this premature baby. It's like pre pre mature....and has tons of complications and makes it. I am listening to their story and crying. I am thinking that now I am out of those child bearing years and grateful that the little girls that I have are and were born of good health. 

60 Minutes has always had stories for everyone. It reminds me of my father and spending my Sunday evening with the Morley Safer , Walter Cronkite, Harry Reasoner, Mike Wallace, and Ed Bradley, I used to put my walk-man on and listen to music and dream about being a reporter on 60 Minutes and how fabulous I would have been. Yeah, the dreams of a  16 year old...or was it later ? Anyway, this was a story about American serviceman having returned from Iraq with brain injuries. That our government was for a long time in denial that these men had those injuries. That they were just crazy or lazy. I don't know, it just broke my heart to hear their stories. 

It's when I turned the radio off I started getting mad and angry. I have surrounded myself by people who are so ....so uptight and conservative they miss out on these stories. They would not DARE listen to public radio because it's just...what ...um...too open minded ? Oh that just angers me. I have spent quite a bit of the last few years telling people about public radio and programs like "This American Life" because they are amazing stories about amazing people. Many of them are heartbreaking and some will make one laugh or it just makes you think about stuff. Please pull your head out your butt and listen to something that makes you grow...instead of just judging others. Seriously, you are missing out on something brilliant..truly brilliant.