The Psychiatrist

Seriously , this is what I  am going to blog about ? Well I have been trying to get help for my midlife crisis. The crying has never stopped. I am not afraid to get help, because obviously I know I need it. I should commend myself on that !  I just did not want to hear from two different doctors that I needed to see a psychiatrist. I thought...oh well it's a hormone imbalance...I can just go to a doctor who specializes in hormone imbalance and it's done.  I won't cry everyday, I won't get angry at my husband and kids for no reason.  Nope, no easy solution for all of this.  I already take two different anti depression drugs which obviously have never helped me.  Am I am embarrassed about admitting to taking these drugs?  Absolutely not. If everyone I know takes some form of an antidepressant drug, then either I know a lot of depressed people or it is quite common.
 I asked my doctor " Why now "?  She told me THIS IS TOTALLY NORMAL. She said she has a very close friend in her 40's who had the same issues. Except, she stopped going to work and I can't exactly say " goodbye family". Oh trust me the temptation has been there to go back to London and just never come back. Um...that would pretty much destroy my family. Well at least I am realistic about that. Anyway, I need to be treated properly with stronger drugs. That is the part I don't like. I don't like taking drugs anymore. It's not good for my body...what if they make me gain more weight ? How uncool would that be ? I don't know if I am wanting to trade in happiness for more weight gain....now who is the narcissist? This is all bad. I have two kids in my class at school who are driving me insane because they are truly idiots. I am moving to Georgia in 6 months and my husband is leaving me for two weeks time in that duration. Yes, feel free to shoot me or lock me up at anytime during this blog.  Just make sure that where I am going is either tropical or is a country located in EUROPE !